omiestutz

So I haven't written anything on here in a long time. Some of it's because of the reason/person I started this for no longer compels me to write on here.

Yet today I was thinking of some things, and I just have to get it off my chest. I am so obsessed with the Twilight saga that it's not really funny anymore! First a saw the movie, which was alright, but nothing to spectacular. Yet it got me wanting to read the books that inspired the movie. That was the beginning of the end for me. Once I started reading I got swept away in this unrealistic world. I could see myself in Bella's place, with a "man" who loved me so unconditionally, and passionately that one can only dream about. Edward loves Bella without concern for his own pain. I love my husband, there is no question about that! I know that he loves me as well, and I am grateful for his forgiveness that he has shown me. Yet 7 1/2 years and three children later the passion is gone. How can I not help but get swept away in a life I wish I could have? -Sighs-

So I guess that's all from me for now. Just had to get that out there.

~Omie

I don’t understand why others tear down others faith, and beliefs. People think that they know things about others religions, but learn them from an un-creditable person, or source. I like to share my faith and beliefs with other, but my heart is grieved when others do not take it seriously, or try and tear it down. I am saddened at others lack of respect for their opinions. Would you go and ask a Jewish person all the facts of what a Muslim believes? No, you should go to someone of that faith and ask them.
Do people find enjoyment in causing others pain? Because I know that it causes me pain and others of my faith pain when others want to discredit our faith. We as members of out faith do not try and tear down others faith, so why do they want to tear down ours? I suppose people tear down things that they do not know, or afraid of learning them. These questions trouble my heart, and weigh down my soul.
Alma 29: 1-2
1 O that I were an angel, and could have the wish of mine heart, that I might go forth and speak with the trump of God, with a voice to shake the earth, and cry repentance unto every people!
2 Yea, I would declare unto every soul, as with the voice of thunder, repentance and the plan of redemption, that they should repent and come unto our God, that there might not be more sorrow upon all the face of the earth.

Ok I know that I have not written anything in a long time, but I have been pondering something today, and would like others opinions.

What do others think of the Mormon Mitt Romney running for the 2008 president? If it is so scared that the prophet of the Mormon Church is going to be making decisions of our United States, then should we not also be worried about someone like Rudy Giuliani whom is a Roman Catholic? Shouldn’t we also be concerned that the Catholic Church would play as much a role in the decision making of Rudy Giuliani that the Mormon Church would be playing in the decision making of Mitt Romney? Why is Mitt Romney’s religion making a bigger controversy then Mike Huckabee who was a Baptist minister from 1980-1992?

Any ways please I would like others opinions.

~Omie

Ok I know that I have not written anything in a long time, but I have been pondering something today, and would like others opinions.

What do others think of the Mormon Mitt Romney running for the 2008 president? If it is so scared that the prophet of the Mormon Church is going to be making decisions of our United States, then should we not also be worried about someone like Rudy Giuliani whom is a Roman Catholic? Shouldn’t we also be concerned that the Catholic Church would play as much a role in the decision making of Rudy Giuliani that the Mormon Church would be playing in the decision making of Mitt Romney? Why is Mitt Romney’s religion making a bigger controversy then Mike Huckabee who was a Baptist minister from 1980-1992?

Any ways please I would like others opinions.

~Omie

So I have a problem. I talk many guys. Most of them I’m not really attracted to, but I like the attention. I flirt, they flirt back. Most of them it seems as if they think they have a chance with me. Yet when one of them finds someone I feel like I’m losing a lover. I’m happy for them, but I get jealous.

What is up with me?

I feel like I am living in hell. In my life, in my mind. Sometimes I am happy, but most of the time I want to die. The stupid family counselor told me that I would not take things from Matt as badly if I was on meds. So is it my fault?

One min. I am mad at someone, the next I want to cry at the things I have said.

Who are my true friends? Who really cares? These are the thoughts that go through my crazy head every min. min of every day. I’m so FUCKING tired of it!

So I found out my gread in my math class tonight. I got a 97% A. Now it is just a stupid high school level math class, but some of the stuff I was not cofadent about before, and now I am. SO that is something. I am pretty happy with myself.

I know that I have not written in here in a very, very long time. But I am so excited that I had to write it down. I have been taking two classes in college. Not a lot because I need to be with the boys, but enough for right now. One is a high school level math class. I never was very good at math. The other one is a computer class, that counts toward my gpa. The math class dose not affect my GPA.

Any ways I had been working for a long time on my final project in computer class. It was a PowerPoint presentation on the Battles of the American Civil War. It was due today. The final was worth 50pnts towards my gread. If we presented in front of the class then we got 25e.c. pnts.

I was the first one to present mine in front of the class(25 e.c. pnts is 25 e.c. pnts). I was a little nervous, but I did not care about what the other students thought. I just kept looking at the teacher to see what she thought. I got it back after some of the other students presented theirs. I got 50/50 on that then the 25 e.c. pnt so 75/50 altogeather.

When everyone was done I got to see what my grade is. I have 112% in the class. So I do not have to go to the last two classes on Wednesday, or next Monday, Nor do I have to take the Final test. WOOOOOO HOOOOOO I am so EXCITED!!!!!!!1

I can’t stop being mad at myself. How is this going to work? I am so excited that I have started classes, but at the same time I want to die. I want to push the knife DEEP into my wrist, and watch the life seep out of my body.

I wonder if anyone else just has those days where they feel like crying? I have been thinking a lot, and the thoughts have me sad. Now it’s not like a suicidal sad, but more of a lost, sad. How do I overcome this? I’ll post more later.